i heart u

my tisy bf at his birthday last saturday... he chose my dress (Wayne Cooper) and i chose his outfit

saturday morning on my own

did i mention i have temporarily moved in with b's?

yes, it's that time of year again... MOVING time... my parents lulled us all into a sense of stability for the past 5-6years at the 3br apartment (6 ppl - you do the math) and then up they leaped off the couch and threw us into a house for the past 12-14 months...and well.... it's go time again this month for us nomads

in the move, i have had to empty my room (omg i did NOT remember buying THAT many clothes!!!) into a STORAGE warehouse whilst my room and my brothers' and my gran's are being renovated...

i am camping at B's with his sister and parents. i'm like the sleepover that never ended... luckily they seem to like me but i miss not being a guest

i miss pookie (he is at the new place - unless mom has given him away without my knowledge, like my two dogs from childhood and then pretended not to realise they were missing until 3 years later admitting they were at my friend Sooping's home)

i miss having all my clothes (even the ones i didn't know i had still) in the one place JUST IN CASE i wanted them - in my defence, B has heaps of clothes and he is NOWHERE near alternating his wardrobe as i am - i have been with him for over a year and he wears like, 3 t-shirts....

i miss my insane deranged unreasonable ridiculous crazy bizarre family - they are crazy and they drive me mad but without them i'm too normal.

i miss my mom and the stress of not knowing what she will do to me next. i won't miss her when she realises i've nicked her vintage Ralph Lauren knit dress that i plan to wear today to a BBQ at Olympic Park. i definitely will not miss her when she realises that i have DESTROYED the vintage dior bag or "DOR" as it is now called... i miss her vintage bruno magli sheepskin boots. i miss her missing me. people don't realise that she is more the annoying older sister not really like my mom. B said why don't you call, but she will just nag me for things that are on my to do list. she doesn't even know i have assignments due and she doesn't show me that she cares what i do, so i'll only believe it when i see it.

i miss my grandma and yelling because she is so deaf, and repeating myself x6 per hour because she has short term memory/attention span.

i miss my poor dad.

i miss internet. B spent 2 hours on the phone with the TPG lady at the support centre (in the Phillippines!!!) who finally said it's my laptop that is not ok. so now i have had to subscribe to techno forum... on a saturday morning i am desperately messaging all these people and talking about domain name servers and ISPs and omg i do not understand what is going on....

i miss everything. i miss the old days.

I'll take two serves of crazy

What's not to like about Karen & Terry...
they are actually B's friends (Karen is one of B's besties and Terry is well, everyone's bestie as well as Karen's bf) but now everyone's chums

And so this is what happens when they come around to a birthday (B's last Friday).

ALWAYS invite them to a party. Props sold separately (or found on the pavement).

Today is Terry's birthday - HAPPY BIRTHDAY from Seaforth... where we are studying/trying to study/hopeless at concentration.

HAVE FUNHAVE FUNHAVE FUNHAVE FUNHAVE FUNHAVE FUNHAVE FUN

I miss tian

I miss tian so much
I wonder if she got the stella mccartney
she messages me at random times, usually when i'm at work and freaking out
I hope she has a good day today, I can think of at least 12 reasons why I will not be okay today at work

I can't believe I forgot to do x
I can't believe I forgot to do y
I cANNOT believe I didn't do xyz (repeat x 12)
omg omg omg
deep breath deep breath
zennnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

at least I can rely on my uni degree
I can't believe I forgot to do x
I can't believe I forgot to do y
I cANNOT believe I didn't do xyz (repeat x 12)
omg omg omg
deep breath deep breath
zennnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

I miss you!! If you were here everything would be ok!
ps my new longchamp is dirty - it is white after all...

Wearing Zara military white top plus black jersey bubble skirt from Morrissey (aussie label), shoes can't be bothered. I will have to sell them if I lose my job most likely... vintage black Dior quilt bag with the gold letters ('i' is missing so it says 'dor'... I will switch the ''r' for 'm' shortly)

XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOOXOXOXOXOXOX

I cry because I care

It's hard making up. I think the longer you are with someone the longer it takes to sort through everything. The day I finally stop fussing would be the day there is nothing left to sort through except the remains of the day. When I never cry over something and am totally fine is the day I am fine alone too. It's hard to explain things like this to a guy. Girls understand. We fight with you because we are fighting for us. It is so important to me, especially the little things. The little things are the most important things.

ARE YOU STUPID

or do you enjoy acting dumb?

Someone please enlighten me why people feel it is necessary to overexpress their feelings towards their other close but nevertheless opposite sex friends in the ways they do??? Plus in public some more.
And then please advise me what would happen if I did the same thing?

I will not blow up
I will not blow up
I will not blow up
I might not bring it up

Do you just not think what other people might think? Then tell me why when I say or do things does it suddenly matter so much?

Celina's birthday at the argyle...

she is so thin she doesn't even need to suck it in for the cheekbones to pop out...
i, on th other hand, wound up with an astma attack after that attempt to match her.
leanne is my sydney-sider tian.
i look terrible in this one, but look how shiny!!!

...and exhale, the wait is over

going to melbourne tonight for the weekend!!!

must not: fall asleep and miss the whole thing
must: go to lygon street and eat pizza
must: go check out scanlan & theodore.. just to say hi
must: drink champagne
must not: leave shoes on the plane
will not: worry about anything

vicious cycle

everytime i'm left on my own at 11pm i get

hungry
tired
sleepy
bored
lazy
thirsty
hungry
hungry
hungry